Sixth Droplet: I Can't Turn Away

Lately, I've been struggling in a handful of areas in my life. In some ways I have felt overwhelmed with responsibilities and to some extent fed up with expectations from those surrounding me. For a while these things have made me want to rebel and turn away from everything. But there is someone who holds me back from doing so. Enjoy this piece of poetry.

It’s like sometimes I just want to turn away

It's like I don’t want to do what you say but what I say

It’s like I want to throw myself in to what you prohibit me from doing

It’s like I want the gratification that is unspoken about

But at the same time that is not who I am

But at the same time it’s like you’ve changed my identity

And I am incapable of changing what you have made me

It’s like I am no longer myself and I no longer live for me

It’s like what you have created cannot be changed

It’s like I am yours

But it’s like I try to be someone who I’m not

However it is my identity in you who sustains my living

It’s like you’re the only one who my inner most being is passionate for

It’s like I have no other alternative

Because I've already found that which completes me

And that is you

My unfailing beautiful marvelous father

I ask for redemption

I ask that you would help me embrace that identity that you have given me

I am your daughter

I am your Life

I am your servant

And I love you

I ask for forgiveness because too often I caress the idea of rebelling against you

For reasons I cannot articulate

But no matter how hard I try to be someone else

My knees kneel before you in awe because

You simply love me anyway